Created & authored by: Anup D.
He goes to hospital every day
To see her
To feel the need to touch her and sit by her side
She never responds
She can’t
Her state of coma don’t let her
Her body is dead
Those eyes of her just see
See him everyday
Holding her hand
Like he will never let her go
It has been 8 years and he never missed a day
He comes there
Talks about few things here and there
To give her company
Hoping to see at least a tiny reaction
Sometimes just as little as a zilch
An inch of her eyelash to move
An eye contact for a Nano second
A little press of hand from her when he holds her
Even hoping for her to feel a slight heaviness in her breathe on seeing him
But she never moved
Cemented and unmoved
He is dying everyday to see her like that
Every one everyday reminds him she is not going to recover
But he knows that the last sense to leave us is our sense of listening
That gives him some hope
The hope which makes him crawl through these 8 years
A hope but never an expectation
A broken heart and a cunning frustration
One train one journey but two different station
But he never lets her see his state and agony
Quite the opposite he behaves normal and funny
Some memories with him make her live
To see the next day
Some unfulfilled desires
Makes her hollow from within every single day
She wants to say
She is dying to express
And say ‘Yes’
To the question he always asks her, ‘Don’t you still love me’?
Before he hugs her and leave everyday
Before he hugs her and leaves everyday
Only to come back again the next day
To be with her
To feel her near
The only happiness in the world is
To love and to be loved
She cries within her
It always hurts when you have someone in your heart
But you can’t have them in your arms
They were both lovebirds
Like rhymes and poetic words
They had lived those days
Those days of laughter and fun
When they both were in school
Young and cool
Those days when his friends use to tell him that ‘to make her fall in love you have to make her laugh’
But for him, every time she laughs his love for her attains the height of a giraffe
They were in love as long as they can remember
Like the honey bee and the sun flower
They loved each other every second, every minute and every hour
‘She is in her last stage’
One day Doctor says
As he checks her pulse
‘Please go home and take some rest’
‘I’m seeing that you have been transfixed here for past 4 days’
‘We have really tried everything we could’
‘And there is nothing much left for us to do’
‘She would not move even an inch’
‘Your 8 years of coming here everyday could not change that’
‘Please accept this now and take care of your own health’
Doctor left the room
Pressing gently on his shoulder as he walked out
His eyes are watery
His dim lit pupils express what he can’t with words
A tiny drop of tears rolls down his cheeks
Which makes the track for the rest of the big ones to follow
His tears from the eyes to the edge of the face
Have travelled the exact same journey
Like his immature love from ‘I love you because I need you’
To ‘I need you because I love you’
An entire journey of a lifetime
He knew that this stage and day would come
But power of the truth is also to shock
And it’s not the least known
Amongst it’s many other appeals
He stood there in silence
His eyes are transfixed on hers
A homely bird seeing it’s nest go
Not a word spoken
Only eyes do the talking
Sounds of this universe are extreme opposite
Yet they co-exist with blissful harmony
Sound of silence of two breathes
And the sound of screaming and burning of two hearts
Both co-exist in harmony
Fortunately they both have learned to understand each other’s silence
Words are only for those who have yet to achieve this dimension of love
He promised himself to not say ‘Goodbye’
In the end because he will only cry
He is seeing her last few breaths
Love does not know it’s own depth until the hour of separation
He does not feel the need to touch her now and sit by her side
Because he knew she never responds
She can’t
Her state of coma don’t let her
Her body is dead
Those eyes of her just see
See him everyday
Holding her hand
Like he will never let her go
It has been 8 years and he never missed a day
He comes there
Talks about few things here and there
To give her company
Hoping to see at least a tiny reaction
Sometimes just as little as a zilch
An inch of her eyelash to move
An eye contact for a Nano second
A little press of hand from her when he holds her
Even hoping for her to feel a slight heaviness in her breathe on seeing him
But she never moved
Cemented and unmoved
As he turned around to go
He just ask her what he ask her everyday before he leaves
He knew for the last time
‘Do you still love me?’
Not expecting her to reply
but
SHE SMILED
P.s: If there is only one smile left in you, give it to the person you have loved the most. Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. Love buzz. It really does
Amature me -Anup D. 